man the week seems to fly by fast doesn’t it? We’re in the home stretch now for the end of school – only 1 more full week for Megan left, and Alyssa starts exams this week – oy.  Please help me find the strength to get through this with her lol We’ve been having some difficulites the last month or so, she’s struggling a bit, but with the help of her teachers, guidance councellor and myself we’ll pull her through it. But I’m thinking perhaps a visit with her pediatrician, whom we’ve not had to see since she was in Gr 6, and a review of her ADD issues might not be such a bad thing for when she returns to school in September.  Something to think about :)  But she and I are spending this weekend working on some history projects she has graciously been given extended time to finish up thanks to her awesome history teacher and hopefully it all works out ok

Not much going on really – been a rough couple days for me unfortunately – just when I think things are going to go *right* for me, I get slapped back to the reality that is my life and let me tell you, it sucks.  It more then sucks really, and I’m almost at the point of just completely giving up.  *sigh* I never do though, I just feel like I could.  But the short version of a long story is – there wont be a lovely peice of land, and a beautiful new mini home any time soon…not unless I somehow, through some sort of divine interevention, or miracle – win the lottery. I don’t need millions mind you…hell I don’t need hundreds of thousands.  No, having about ohhhhh $30-$35,000 would be nice.  Hell, even $20,000 would probably do it, and the girls could live without the swimming pool lol But it’s disheartening to say the least.  Especially since the land I found was going to be perfect. It WAS perfect and it met all my requirements….in my #1 area, it was huge so that I was never going to have to worry about neighbors bothering me ever!  I had that damn mini home decorated and ready in my head….could picture the landscaping, could envision it all completely in my head.  Makes my head hurt now to think about it…and the kids are sad too – they were really looking forward to the whole thing :(   And please…please – don’t tell me to be patient – I have enough ppl telling me that. I don’t want to be patient. I’m tired of being patient…really I am.  Just once, once, I’d like something to work out in my favor you know????

Uuuugggghhhh – this sort of turned out to be a “woe is me” blog post.  Thankfully I don’t do that very often. So I guess if the money fairy isn’t able to drop a wad of cash off in my bank account, I’m back to searching for a house.  Which I’ve been doing for almost 6 months now with no luck and can’t see that luck changing anytime soon.   Ooops, sorry, there’s more of that “woe is me” shit.

Soooo, uhhhh, what else?  Megan is in nonstop birthday party planning mode now, has been for a couple weeks now…apparently we’re having a birthday party here next weekend…with a theme for god sakes LOL  She’s been telling everyone that they have to wear pajamas….”funky” ones at that.  I hope these girls don’t think it’s like an overnight pj party…cuz….uhhhh…its not!!! ROFL!  No…hotdogs, cakes, ice cream, pop, chips, maybe a movie, maybe I’ll do make overs or something….there will be wine… lots of it….for ME LOL